My return....

So - I haven't blogged in a LONG time... but I am thinking about a comeback... Must get my ramblings in order!!

Stay Tuned!

Just when I think I am doing exactly what I want a dumbass throws a monkey wrench into the mix.....

Today's Quote:

"The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese".

So... as some of you know I moved to Cleveland Circle about 8
months ago... well that is over... I have to move. My landlord (Carl Kaloustian)
is a complete nutbag. He entered my apartment and cut the electricl cords to 3
of my personal appliances (wine fridge $380, mini fridge $120, fan $40...) and
proceeded to keep the portion of the cord that plugs into the wall... He did
this because he didn't want me to use them any longer... and then had the
ordacity to threaten me about it...

I recomend no one rent from this dimented jerk again... warn your friends, and know your rights... Tennants have the right to a safe place to live... call your local Consumer Affairs department if you think you are being mistreated... the call is free but the peace of mind is priceless...

6.9% increase in profits for Exxon Mobil... how cute

Today's Quote:

"The petroleum products we deliver are essential to the lives and livelihoods of Americans. Ready access to clean, affordable energy has been a foundation of our nation’s economic success, an engine of tremendous job creation, and a vital part of Americans achieving their dreams."

-Rex W. Tillerson
Chairman and CEO, Exxon Mobil Corporation


Sweet of Rex to think of us ... in't it?

When you hear 6.9% you may automatically think about what that kind of porfit would do to your bank account. Say you have $10,000 in the bank, a 6.9% increase would mean adding $690 to your balance. But when I hear that Exxon Mobil reported a 6.9% profit for the first quarter I become a little enraged because we are now talking about approximately $540 million dollars! I'm sorry you did you hear that??? $540 MILLION DOLLARS. Profits rose from $7.86 BILLION to $8.4 BILLION... I decided to visit their website... the following is how they explain why they price gas the way they do:


(visit http://www.exxonmobil.com/corporate/ for more information)

Everyday I listen to the news, and gas prices are amoung the top issues duscussed everyday. American's are outraged by the high costs. Airline ticket prices are rising, public transportation costs are rising, heating costs are rising and while all us little people spend and spend and spend on day to day living, the men upstairs are licking their lips. They tell us they care then act like they don't...

Congratulations Exxon Mobil - for your fortuitous windfall. I'm glad my hard-earned money is making someone rich...

-me

And so it begins......

Today's Quote:
Massachusetts has been the wheel within New England, and Boston the wheel within Massachusetts. Boston therefore is often called the "hub of the world," since it has been the source and fountain of the ideas that have reared and made America.
- Rev. F.B. Zinckle


I made the move!! Ths past Saturday I moved into a one-bedroom apartment in Brighton. Living alone is so relaxing... the only neurotic behavior I have to put up with is my own... HA... I can have parties, or be alone any time I want. It is very refreshing!!

I definatly need to get some decorations for the walls, and am in desperate need of extension cords... but if those are my only problems I am pretty good shape.

All I want is to be happy... and I am working on it. I am really working on it.

Miscellaneous Ramblings... and the introduction of My Opposite Twin......

Today's Quote:

"I had a friend, and we always used to pretend to be twins. We had this fantasy about going to Hollywood together. We were about four. "
- Radha Mitchell

So... yesterday I was chatting on AIM with M.O.T. (My Opposite Twin) and I realized that I have not introduced her to my blog readers... M.O.T. is just that... we are complete opposites... I am tall and African American - she is short and Puerto Rican American. I am fancy - she is not. I can't tell you how much fun we used to have together... (I miss her - she no longer lives in Massachusetts) Anyway... we used to go to bars or whatever together - say someone was alking to me I would be like "Have you met my twin?" HILARIOUS!! We are to each other what Danny Devito and Arnold were in the movie... HA!! Hey M.O.T. remember the time I got a piece of lettuce stuck in my esophagus and then spit/puked it up on your wall?? (Laughing hysterically as I type) - WOOO Boy - those were the days!!

So today is the day... I am going to make my final decision on an apartment in Cleveland Circle... I WANT THIS APARTMENT - perfect location... lovely apartment... wish me luck...

I am seriously considering doing my kitchen with pink appliances and accessories... I don't want to seem like a girlie nutbag though... I'll ponder it a little more before I make my final decision on that... One thing I am SO excited about is moving my wine refridgerator in... and setting up a bar-type area. Ok... I'm a weirdo!! But a loveable weirdo - with a great wine collection - don't you think??

I need to buy a couple artists canvases so I can paint a few pictures for the wall. I am leaning toward an abstract tryptick of some brightly colored flowers... funny how people use the word abstract as a disclaimer nowadays... to let people know that it may not look like anything... but somewhere along the way you had a flower in mind... all kidding on the abstractness of the pieces... I can actually paint pretty well... I fully expect that upon my demise (98 years - give or take - from now) that these paintings will be valued somewhere in the million dollar range - HA - get your checkbooks out!!

- me

Just Another Manic Monday....

Today's Quote:

"I am ready for love why are you hiding from me
I'd quickly give my freedom to be held in your captivity
I am ready for love all of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes just to stay in your good grace
Lately I've been thinking maybe you're not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow I'll say the same thing
I am ready for love would you please lend me your ears
I promise I won't complain I just need you to aknowlegde I am here
If you give me half a chance I will prove this to you
I will be patient kind faithful and true
To a man who loves music a man who loves art
Respects the spirit world and thinks with his heart
I am ready for love if you take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach and do the best that I can
I am ready for love here with an offering of
My voice my eyes my soul my mind
Tell me what is enough to prove I am ready for love
I am ready"

- India Arie, Lyrics to I Am Ready For Love

I have been reading a lot of blogs lately... a lot of really insightful blogs... so I wanted to give a little shout out to all the blog authors out there... what a community we have!!

Now the ramblings...

I am feeling really apathetic today - disinterested - melancholy - and I can't really figure out why. My life is going alright. Since my acceptance of the new job in television I have been EXTREMELY HAPPY... but today is different. I feel like something is missing. I moved in with my mom a couple years ago because her house is really close to my old office. But I left that job in December to work in Boston again, and now I am faced with an aggravating commute everyday that eats away at me. Sure I relish the alone time. I like being able to just sit in my own quiet and read or listen to my iPod and not feel like there is someone I am ignoring... the fact of the matter is during my commute I ignore everyone! But I have to leave my house at 7am in order to get to my office for 9am... and leave at 5pm only to arrive home at 7:30. My soul longs for my own apartment. A little corner of the world that I don't have to share with anyone... if I want all my kitchen appliances to be perpendicular or parallel to each other no one will have any reason to care... or if I want to leave the TV on all night no one will notice. It isn't that I don't have the money to get my own place, but I am back in school, and paying for it myself... what if I don't get any financial aid on year? What will I do then? And lets be realistic... Boston is crazy expensive!! I don't really want to live in some freakishly small apartment! Picky?? Why yes I am!!

I can't help but think that my melancholy is more than the whole apartment thing... I think it has to do with the fact that I am actually tired of being single. Strange to hear myself say (or type as the case may be) these words because I have always been the serial bachelorette. Happier doing what I want instead of making compromises for other people... but I feel alone - and it's sad. I have friends, but we all know that it isn't the same. I feel things changing around me and I see my friends sharing moments with their significant others... who should I share things with? I always called guys that I was "seeing" my insignificant others, and now that joke instead of making me smile, makes me sigh... I used to have so much fun with Mr. K. and I shit all over that by never letting go, or giving in... now we are like "nothing" to each other - hardly even friends... we chat here and there, sometimes meet up, but not in each others lives... and in his place - where I used to put these "disposable" men - I now have no one... it's like I don't want to waste my time or something... and instead of wasting time I am biding it... six of one, half dozen of another...

-me

I'd like to Teach the World to Sing.....

Today's Quote:
"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit."
- Aristotle

Random thought;

I don't know if I have ever told any of you this, but I HATE bananas... I haven't eaten one in over 12 years. The last time I ate a banana I threw up and now I can't stand the thought of them. It's funny though because I have thrown up because of booze too (haven't we all), but I continue to drink. HAHA.

Now on to my ramblings...

What has happened to TRUE Hip Hop and good music in general? I am tired of listening to the music that artists are putting out. I mean... I bob my head to the beat, but what on earth are the talking about? NOTHING... ass (girls with big ones, and getting some), money, jewelry, grills... Damn... if that is what our generation is reduced to then we are in seriously sad condition. Call me old fashion, but I really enjoy The Roots, Common, A Tribe Called Quest, Erykah Badu, Lenny Kraitz... I'd rather hear lyrics like "...there are times when you need someone, and I will be by your side..." (Love goes out to the people who actually know the name and album of that song) instead of "oooo boy your lookin like you like what you see, won't come over and check up on it..." (No surprise that all of you probably know this song)... I'm no hypocrite... I listen to the radio, all I want to know is when it became the norm for music to be so shallow?? We wonder why our children are having sex at younger and younger ages, and why drugs are running rampant through schools, but the lyrics of the music these kids are listening to are telling them to get high and have sex... Um... HELLO!! Self-fulfilling prophesy...??!!

Music used to be about voicing social angst... crooning about love... should we assume that musicians no longer are in touch with their pain? Are they too far removed from their humble beginnings now that they are sitting in their $5.9 million dollar Malibu mansion sipping their $1000 per bottle champagne preparing a ridiculous monologue for their 12 minute spot on MTV Cribs?? Here's a solution... lets stop buying their albums so that they have to downsize - they can then re-connect with the pain they made them famous to begin with...

If Aristotle is correct, which I suspect and believe he is, Beyonce is in serious trouble... at the rate she is going all she repeatedly does is shake her ass... what kind of personal excellence is that? unless it's just an act...

-me